5 days until m no longer a Teenager...

....i hav been dreading dis day since 28 april of last year....in 5 days i turn 20! i am not quite sure how to feel abt it..one side of me is saying "yay 20!" but the other side ,d more stubborn n louder side of me saying "20...wht the hell? how cud dis happen? crap i feel so old!!...i will no more be a teenager.....wud have to unlike all the teens page on FB...*sob* *sob* :( "  

The number "2" seems so "old", like I HAVE to be an adult. And I don't think I can...  as a teenager I never drank,never tried my hand at ny illeagal activity,neither did i sneeked out of the house at night or  any of the stuff  that the “typical” teenager at least experiments with...... I don’t regret not doing any of it but at the same time, I feel like the opportunity to be able to experiment with stuff like that and get away with it has passed....although till nw m happy with my past years bt its almost bittersweet that that portion is over.... It makes me really sad and makes me wish time could stop. I'm sad because I can't go back to relive those fun times again...

I’m now at the point in my life when I can say things like “when I was a kid” or “back in the 90s” or even *gasp* “when I was your age…”. It’s a bit unnerving, let me tell you! I’m at the point where I’ve had some friends for decades. My oldest friend and I have been friends for 17 years! I really can’t believe how quickly these years have gone by....Time flies so fast!!! Every once in a while I’ll catch myself thinking back to 6th grade, 4th grade, 2nd grade, and realize “wow…that was a REALLY long time ago!”. I remember that I always wanted to be 16, but when I was 16 I wanted to be 20... 

Now I'm about to b 20 I want to be 16 again  ...what the hell !! 

This is probably the first birthday that I've felt absolutely no excitement for. Actually, I'm feeling the opposite.... I'm dreading seeing that number continue to rise....

nyhow i cant stop the tym bt just go by the line "growing old is mandatory,growing up is optional" la la la laa la la la la....happy b'day to meehh!!! :) -_-:D

trapped in a beautiful prison...!!!

.... also known as Switzerland of the east because of its natural beauty and land of cherry blossoms and saffron fields, of sparkling rivers and serene lakes, of stunning gardens and stately chinar trees, of flowering meadows and snow-capped peaks....it's dangerous beauty can't be overestimated, the scenery is amazing. ..... yes!!! u got me right....m talking about KASHMIR....the most dangerous place on earth!!!

i as a child used to visit this summer capital n spent my most of the vacations there.....came to know it very closely.....overwhelmed by its vast beauty it wud not b wrong to mention dat if there is heaven on earth its right here... Kashmir is described variously as the paradise on earth, the dream-land, the choicest creation of God, etc. Jehanghir is said to have quoted the following Persian Sher in praise of Kashmir.

Gar Firdaus Bay Roo-e-Zernin-ast Hamin asto, Hamin asto, Hamin ast  which means if there be any paradise  on the earth; it is here, it is here, it is here!

leaving besides its beauty it is strongly under the constant threat of ultras....they say kashmir ek khoobsurat jail hai.....people living here (which includes me ofcourse although only for 4 years) cant enoy living in this paradise...the innocents leaving their nests to earn living in the morning are not even sure of returning back at night.....this is SAD but TRUE :( everyone is equally affected ranging from the child who is born to the old people.....all are under the black shadow of militancy....

i wish and pray dat may god bless this beautiful valley n its occupants so that they can soon come out of this gloom n once again this valley blooms with never ending giggles :) :)

A nation free of corruption - Hazare khwaishein aisi...!!!

recently witnessed all the social networking sites flooded with one name "HAZZARE".....since i was not much aware of this fellow....i just googled it out ....i wish google sat next to me during my exam....nw cuming to the point after reading about him i realised how much i was missing wen i was nt aware of this burning issue...one of the daily stated that "India preparing to fight against corruption. People are demanding strong Law against corruption. Shree Anna Hazare has given ultimatum to Prime minister for Strong Jan Lokpal bill against corruption. If not heard Anna would start indefinite fast from 5th april on Jantar mantar Delhi." frankly speaking the only thought that came to my mind after reading dis was "when nothing works fasting works"...hehe.... but then another thing that bothered me was even more striking...i came across a tweet by Chetan Bhagat stating dat "Mera Neta Chor Hai". It is what you have always felt. Why not bring it out in the open?" i thought  we may be against corruption on fb or on twitter or ny other online platform.. but in ground.. are we???? 

Dear Indians, Today Times of India has compared Shri Anna Hazare Ji with Sonia & Rahul as Aam Admi. ...These corrupt news paper & TV News Channels r trying to protect Congress. It is needless to mention that Congress & their allies have beaten all their political competitors and have won ICC( International Corruption Cup) for India....!!!
Isn't it a shame that in a country with a 40% youth population,a 73-year old man is fasting unto death? What are YOU(TH) doing?
but its important there be one and only one anna hazzare for now. it is important that we all remain behind him. show solidarity. follow the man! 

stepping in a newer wider world !!!

....here i am....finally entered the blogger's world....from  past few days  i found myself peeping into people's blog......don't know all of a sudden  which force inside me made me do that but as they say...whatever happens happens for good....so i took this force in a positive way....n finally decided to write my first blog...ok before i go further....lemme introduce my self.....
my parents call me shona....n m registered on my death certificate oops !! on my birth certificate as udita gupta...“I am a harmless Creature, until all my harmones work properly”.
i graduated from school for "rich parents spoilt kids" n ended up in National Institute Of Technology Srinagar where m completing my btech in IT...they say srinagar is a paradise which is not true when it comes to studying here.... but i do find one advantage of this place...there is no fear of getting tanned :P
I set the bar high and catapult  right over the thing known as achievement. Man I'm Fuc** awesome....  I remain commited to my high educational standards which basically include nodding off in every lecture.... Life is all about the smile and the nod..... 
now cuming to the point....my blog is all about my life and the wonderful people in it dat make my life worth living!!!! 
because i think life is precious...n m precious....so i have chosen to pen down all the ups n downs which i am gonna face...yeah its true m pampered...some call me "delicate darling"...some call me "bigdi  shehzadi"...n yeah how can i forget "angel"... bt i truly love my self n m happy the way m made n groomed...!!!
now m nt getting what to scribble.....i think its time to end writing......i hope m welcomed in bloggers world warmly as i was welcomed in ny other social networking site ...
before i sign off i wud like to say that m still kiddish....still believe in shooting stars,wishing  wells, eyelashes, birthday candles, and 11:11.....oh gawd pls never lemme out of this fairy tale ....
cheerio!